why are there always guys... i hate having my heart scraped against the wall and be returned to me... ok... so his name's andrew... and basically this is what happend:

i've been messing with his head in school and saying stuff like "let's go have sex." so later on, i found out he liked me which made me go from thinking he was "just hot" to "i like him".

then i saw him at a party last night and i said "Andrew, let's go have sex" so my friends made him think that i was serious, but they also convinced me that i was serious too. so he said "well i'm graduating tommorrow, and i don't wanna be tired" and i said "please!" so we were going to his car, and i chickened out, so i ditched him and he got so mad. but then my friends went to him and said i was serious, and that i would go, so he looked at me and said, "come with me" so we went to the side of his car so no one would see us and we stayed talking for the longest time ever! and he told me stuff that i totally related to, and that made me fall for him even more!!!!! that was not suppose to happen!

BUT he also said stuff like, how he's gonna be moving, and he never wants to come back to Q-town (where i live) again, and that we just wouldn't work out 'cause he's gonna be a freshman in college, and i'm only gonna be a junior in high school, and there's gonna be a lot more people in college, and he doesn't want anything to happen with another girl, so i said that he could do whatever, as long as i never caught him, and he was basically explaining how he only wants one girl, but he doesn't exactly know if it's me.

so i told him that i really like him and he just said "it's 'cause of my long hair" (it's not even that long) and i said that was totally it, and we started laughing and i said "but i'm serious, this is a small town and there's been guys where i say 'oh, he's hot' but i've never liked a guy here for their personality the way i like YOU," and he said it's just 'cause he's different and everyone else in this town's all the same. and i said that was exactly right. and then he said "well look, i want pussy, i'm not gonna lie... well not to sound desperate or anything... but i just don't want it on our first night talking. you're so tempting, but i couldn't do that.... well take Compton for example..." (she's my friend who gets A LOT of sex [and she's also the girl he lost his viginity to]) and i said, "oh i heard about you two." and he said "yeah, see i slept with her when i was totally wasted, but for 2 months i felt like shit 'cause i barely even knew her, so you just don't wanna go with some random person. well i wouldn't 'cause i'm the kind of guy who only wants relationships and not just hook ups." and i said, "same here"

and then, i just had to ask "well what do you honestly think of me? you can say i'm annoying, i just wanna know fer sure" and there was a long pause, then he said " i think you're hot, i just don't know that much about you, considering the first words you've ever told me were 'let's have sex,' and i don't want to do that to soon................ but i do want to kiss you." then i said i didn't know 'cause i'm REALLY self-concious 'cause the whole time i kiss a guy i wonder what he's thinking and that he's probably thinking "i've had better" or "she's horrible" or "that's not even good" and just stuff like that, so he said "well, see... me, i'm not a judging person, i'm probably the worst kisser, so i wouldn't judge you. i just want one kiss........... on the lips....." so we did it,

and he said "see, that was good!" and then there was long moment of silence, and he said " i want another one...." so we did...
and there were A LOT more talking, i just can't remember half of it, and i can't write it all. so then he said "well i have like half an hour to get home, so do you want to have sex or not?" so i said that i had to go check on my friends 'cause we stayed there for a long time, and i said "i'll be right back" so i told my friends everything, and when i turned around to go back he started his car, and left..... so i never said good bye....
:(

watching that 70's show, and talking to..... him..... on the phone....

GREEN DAY!!!! why must you ask????

none...

That 70's Show!